Dear Not-So-Private-Diary,

It's been a long time since I came to this site.. it used to be some sort of haven for roleplaying & recieving slanderous female images to me.
However, since I wanted to tell people who actually still talked to me (somewhat) I came back to say goodbye to them.
I wanted to apologize to SpinballChaos for everything & tell him what I really thought about things I will leave unmentioned. Since he doesn't want me to tell him in the chat (which I'm probably banned from), I will just write it in my Journal (which he probably will never read because he doesn't care what I think or say or do anymore).

I finally decided on a religion, and when I get to SonicUtopia I feel as if I'm being criticized for having found it. I am now a Christian once more, with the denomination of being Lutheran, like Chii.

I told NavyBlueSapphire that I wanted to say hi to OmniDroid, JohnJensen, & maybe SpinballChaos; somehow it was taken the wrong way because they were all male, so SpinballChaos kicked me, and made an immodest comment to go with it.

Throughout the entire chat edward-chans-girl posted slanderous female images that usually caused me pleasure, but now they cause me shame & discomfort. I do not know if it was a joke or if she hates/hated me as well, but whatever she decides is her choice, and her choice is good because it makes her a unique person.

I return so I can explain what I really intended, and apparently, the point is still taken the wrong way as "Dolly is a whore" (excuse my language). NavyBlueSapphire basically tells me she doesn't care (which is perfectly understandable) & SpinballChaos clarifies that no one else does either, kicks me again & make another remark.

According to the rules of SonicUtopia, if a person is kicked three times they are banned. I decided to try once more to converse & make peace, starting with NavyBlueSapphire & I am kciked again with SpinballChaos making a remark that I won't be getting their boys OR girls(this is paraphrased, of course).

But whatever anyone wants is OK. As long as they are living their lives.. I just wish that more people would stop rejecting God & Jesus Christ nowadays, but as the world grows more corrupt, the end becomes closer.

I might leave dA, or just visit every so often. I probably will not be active anymore (not that I ever was). I discovered that OmniDroid doesn't respect me near as much as I respected him. =/ I'm nothing to respect of course, so that is understandable.

Cody & I are still dating.. we've been together for seven months now. He still loves me & messages me twenty times a day, but I wonder how long it will be before either of us can see one another again. Hopefully not long. I will pray for us, but mostly him because of his cruel & insane parents.

In other "non-emo" news, I have grown a strong addiction to this new TV show called Chowder. I have also been bringing up my grades. I have been attending my best friend's church & it turns out she doesn't hate me like I thought. She actually missed me, which came to my surprise. I'm also learning two languages at onc: Japanese & Norwegian (Bokål). I might stop Japanese and study Finnish instead, though. I love my blood line heritage stuff.

That is all for now.


Elske/Love/Ai,




Dollena C. Aratami